Valentines Day

I realized I have no food at home. I've been so busy these past two weeks I haven't had the chance to go grocery shopping. I literally only have water, ooyoo bbang, tapatio, peanut butter and jelly with some special k and no milk. This is very sad, this hasn't happened to me...ever. So busy busy busy. So busy I haven't even noticed until now.  (What have I been eating for the past two weeks???) And the weather has been so horrible that the idea of even going is kind of undesirable. I'm going to go tomorrow. Rain you can't faze me!

Today was Livingwater's Valentines Day Banquet. Pastor Josh gave a short 10 minute message but his words were powerful, despite his confusion with the direction in which the sun rises and sets. Love is willed. God's love toward us is willed, and our love is meant to be the same. It is not just about the fluttered emotions or the attraction that is so easy to come by and can just as easily be taken away. That makes love a hard thing to do, because it is conscious and at times, unnatural. How do you love someone who's never there for you, or someone who's just not nice to you, someone who's constantly turning their back on you, someone who never sees you, absorbed in their own world a little too much. Jesus, how do you do it to me, how do you constantly pursue me the way you do. May I love like you, see like you, desire like you.