I want figs and not leaves. I will not settle for the leaves when I know He's already set aside figs for my life. I will be patient for the figs.

It's not easy though, it's hard to let go of what you cover yourself up with. What gives you assurance, what gives you stability, what gives you peace of mind as temporary as it may be. What makes you look like you got it all together. As if you weren't a work in progress. As if you weren't still being restored.

Lots of things on my mind lately, trying to think it through made my head go crazy. I think too much, worry a lot. And in the midst of it I realize it needs to be brought before Him first. All of it, each of it. In prayer, in surrender, knowing that He is God and I am not.