Just breathe, take a step at a time.
5.07.2009
it's going to be ok
It's been a crazy week. So many due dates, so many things done at the very last minute. Lots of things to organize and plan for. Money to turn in. Money to be paid. Things to buy. Going from point A to point B then back again. Back and forth. Back and forth. Nothing going right, one mistake and then another. Sleep tired, wake up tired. I had a nervous breakdown. I get those sometimes, I try so hard to keep them in. Because they're immature, it's not the "cool calm and collected" facade. I want to be cool as a cucumber, I really do. But why's it so damn hard sometimes. It was the last straw, and I couldn't keep it in. I was doing it all week and then I just couldn't. And then when you hear "calm down" it's the last thing you need. And then, Gena came to me just as I was leaving and hugged me. She didn't have to say anything and instantly I felt like I could breathe again. It was ok, it was all going to be ok. All it took was one hug.
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Hola, Rachel! I just learned about this whole new world of blogging. And I found yours!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you got the hug from Gena. That's what all of us need. Did you know that psychologically/emotionally, humans need 4 hugs to survive, 8 hugs to maintain, and 12 hugs a day to grow? Hehe, have at it with Gena!
Anywho, are you in Berkeley for the summer?? We have JUST the small group bible study for you. It's about discerning the truth among the false "Christian" assumptions we have...like what you were takling about "I can't have immature feelings, I have to be calm and collected, because of ____." If you're here, we'd love to have you a part of our summer small groups!
Take care.
things are just so ridiculous sometimes that i just have to laugh. i hope you could greet and end your days with laughter. :)
ReplyDeletehi rachel, hang in there. you're never alone. i love youuu.
ReplyDeleteso dramatic.
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FOREVER CIA AGENTS!
i feel you, once again.
ReplyDeletesometimes, in those weakness, just pray. and then think of "my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
not to use this verse outa context, but weakness in general, how we NEED God for strength and diligence. i know you know this. you can do it!