그래도 한때는 나한테 소중했던 그 사람들이였는데
어느세 내가 그걸 너무 잘하는것같다
머리속에서 끄집어내는 행동,
하나 하나씩...나를 아프게 하는 모든것을 까먹는짓을..
그짓을 내가 이젠 너무나도 잘한다
기억들, 순간들, 사람들
어쩌면 한때 나를 그렇게 행복하게했던 그 순간들이
왜 이젠 기억 조차도 남지 않는걸까?
근데 그건 더 아프다
오래오랫동안 생각나지 않았던것들, 기억나지 않았던것들이
자기 마음대로 나타나 나를 괴롭힐때
어디선가 다시 돌아와, 원하지 않는 순간에 드리닥칠때
그게 더 아프다
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i love you rachel. what you wrote is very true, except a lot of times i think i do it to myself. but head up! things will get better, they always do. i wish i could give you a real hug right now but since i can't, *e-hug* :)
ReplyDeletei freaking really read that in korean. dude. u have to give me madd props. :]
ReplyDeletei think the heart is very mysterious. the heart is deceitful above all else. who can understand it?
the heart has so much power. you almost have to respect it.
when those things come up... i believe we... take it to the Lord in prayer. :]
love u. let's go to our bench before u leave and soak in the sunset.
i wish i didnt struggle so much trying to understand it.
ReplyDeletewhatever it is, it sounds really emo. so im gonna say, Jesus is the answer
i hear you...
ReplyDeletesarah, come back & give me a real hug soon!
ReplyDeletejenny, lets go back lets go back!
saehoon, yes, that was emo. that's what i get for drinking tea late at night and not being able to sleep at 3 AM. and yes, Jesus is my answer.
joey, "idunknow" do you really hear me? :P