training

Visited CMC today to help out with body worship & skits and see the leaders. It was so surreal, thinking that it had already been a year since I was doing exactly what I saw all the trainees were doing. I couldn't believe that I wasn't a trainee still, that I didn't have to stand outside and learn new body worship, that I didn't have to wake up and be at CMC by 6:30 each morning. I realized, I miss it. I miss seeing my teammates every morning till sundown, getting to know each of them, having to learn new dramas & skits everyday...messing up more often than getting it right (Frank La can attest to this) I miss becoming a team with my teammates..I really miss that idea of working with a team of people toward a goal. I miss supporting them and being supported by the teammates and leaders, the staff. I miss our devotion times, our prayer times, our times of laughter and lots of eating together. I miss PDub, our loving leader who loved us unconditionally for who each of us were, who led so quietly but so powerfully in prayer. Robin, Leader Robin, Soccer Robin, bodyworship Robin, all the Robins that so clearly just wanted the best for our team, to have a team that was glorifying to God and not to anyone else. And if I wanted to describe each of my teammates it would take forever and no one would continue reading. I miss working with a team.  I miss that high you get when your team rejoices together...it truly is a beautiful sight. I miss my journalism staff -- working with them & stressing, reading, writing, editing, working with indesign 24/7, frustrated with incompetent and dysfunctional printers for two weeks and then getting the paper out on time (and ... not on time) that Friday. It made it all worth it. 

I wish future Berkeley students had the chance to go out with KCM STSM. I wish they could just be a part of it, be part of the team, be part of the plan. It's funny, because Riddler my teaching partner must have felt the same way after visiting training today bc he blogged pretty much exactly the same thing. I wish I was going out again this year too, I wish I could do it all over again. But the harvest is plenty not just in Sihanoukville and Life University. go stsm 2k9!