Junior year?

I've been on what feels like a short blog hiatus. I just didn't have anything to write, and even still I will forewarn you that I have not pre-organized or planned this blogpost at all, I am just free writing which may lead to a very jumbled & all over the place post, bear with me folks. (is it bare or bear? I never quite figured that one out...)

Lately I've been really into "Shining" by Phil Wickham. I heard it for the first time in Matt's car with the windows down soaking in the nice summer breeze. The beginning doesn't really sound like a Phil Wickham song but the lyrics are just really nice, just being in God's presence and resting in it.

The first week of junior year has already come and is almost over (TGIF.) I only had 1 day of classes but it was a jam packed day and its worn me out. I don't know if this "pack all my classes in 2 days a week with 4 lectures a day" is a good idea for me...I have no choice though, so gotta suck it up and keep moving along. I need strength to keep it together. It's weird being a junior, it's just around the time when you get the hang of things -- somehow I feel that has sort of zapped the excitement that I remember feeling this time around last year and the year before that. The excitement of starting a new school year, having new professors and classes. I am definitely taking some interesting classes (ie: Sociology of the Family, Effects of Mass Media) but once again, I am playing that all too familiar game of "look for last minute classes because you didn't get into the class you really wanted due to a ridiculous waitlist" I hate playing this game that I play with Telebears at the beginning of every semester. Without fail, I always get jacked of one class and have to look for a class after everyone's already been enrolled. Sigh...the life of being a UC student.

I reopened my academic schedule Moleskine journal that I haven't touched since the last semester ended. I flipped the pages to August 27 and it said "Prague!" I guess that's where I thought I was going to be today....back in January last year. Things change, plans don't fall through. But man today I was just looking around and thinking "this is not Prague.." In the end, that is still okay because I am still privileged to be here at all.

Don't let me burn out, this is still a beginning of sorts.